Questions ????

November 30, 2008

Why is it that the things we want most, are the things hardest to achieve. Why is it that when I ask that question…I don’t regard it as a question.

 

twilight

Keeping myself from boredom, I get a copy of a popular novel thinking if it’s worth reading, the title is simple, as well as the synopsis. And yet it was a best seller. So I gave it a try. And here I am, suddenly, forcefully transformed into the madman who’s in love in the idea of falling in love. Here I am. Paralyzed. Stagnant. Unable to move on from a fictional love story, hoping that I could find love in an irresistible ‘inconvenient package’. And I may say it deserves to be called a best seller. Gah….enough with the bitterness…I think I should see a counselor. hehehe.

 

blood and milk

she is a woman of about 35 to 40. She wears an old over-sized shirt, and  jersey shorts that may belong to her husband. One look, and you know she is a mother from a family under the poverty line. One look, and you know that she’s bothered; tired, yet shes trying to build her courage.

Her footsteps are of the insane, minds of the desperate. she walk aimlessly, slowly toward the glass doors. An unfriendly look from a man on white and blue seize her movement, but  then, collecting her courage, she focus all her courage on the goal of passing through the now-opened glass doors.

She found herself both happy and desperate. Her eyes gleam as she walk on the aisle of the long line of toys. And maybe those gleaming are dreams for her children. Yes, dreaming that her children are playing, happy and satisfied with those colorful stuffs.

And yet, that is not the reason she’s walking inside that huge establishment. Right now, she has a different dream.

The staccato of her steps became of a rapid rhythm of adrenaline and desperation as she saw, from a corner her target. She strech her hands to reach for that rectangular box. And finally, she have it.

 A smile runs across her face as the box vanished, hidden into her old baggy shirts. She walks so confident yet so silent and innocent. Now just few more steps and shes free. Few more steps and her baby would be happy.

As she pass through the same glass doors, an unfamiliar hand grab her on her waist. And that was the hand she wishes never to reach her. The hand become two and reach for something on her old baggy shirts. And found the box the woman treasures.

But she cannot surrender the box. Her child needs it. With no other choice. She fight her way against the rough hands and run as fast as she could. No matter where. No matter how far. But very unfortunate, men on the white and blue uniform run after her. Determined and powerful. Unlike her sprint that is weak and undecided.

Her steps are confused. Her steps are unfaithful to her own decisons. Setting her fears aside, she run across the road where vehicles meet and cross. Yes, across that road where no people are invited and boxes with wheels dominate. But she knows better, the other side of the road is salvation and comfort, and the only way back to her children.

But then, life is not fair..She is unwelcomed on the property of the raging wheeled vehicles.

Blood came running through the roads. Carried by the furious wheels. 

And the dream of the toys and the milk was carried away, along with the blood and human flesh. The dream remained a dream. And the milk became blood.

board exam 101

October 8, 2008

“hijo, wag kang pamgpicnic, mag-exam ka” linya sakin ng proctor sa board exam na I took last last week. Kasi naman, masyado akong nag enjoy sa mga baon ko kaya nakalimutan ko na nagbo-board exam pala ako.

 

Instruction for board examinees:

1. Dress code: white shirt with collar
2. Bags, cell phones and any gadgets or accessories are not allowed in the examination premises
3. Examinees are allowed to bring and eat food during the examination.
4.  etc.

 

Matapat naman akong sumunod sa instruction, kaya lang langya pagdating ko sa assigned school ko, my mga examinees na naka-purple, orange, atbpang kulay na hindi white. At may dala silang mga bags at cell phone. Bwisit. akala ko pa naman kapag ganitong mga event eh, mahigpit talaga. So habang nakaplastic ang lahat ng gamit ko at bored dahil walang hawak na gadget, eh masaya namang nakakapagtext ang iba. Dapat next year magka-rule ang PRC na ang sinuman na magdadala ng bag, cell phone, o any gadget ay mamamatay after 7 days.

 

Pero kahit papano nakahinga din naman ako ng maluwag dahil peaceful naman ung exam, hindi kagaya ng inaasahan ko na may stampede, hihimatayin, sasapian, at alien invasion. Pero gaya  ng inaasahan merong mga na no-nose bleed sa exam (ehem).

 

6pm ang tapos ng exam pero tapos na ko ng 2pm, at hindi yun isang achievement on my part, dahil madalas, kapag maaga kong natatapos ang exam eh…huhuhu. Kaya naman tinatanong ko un sarili ko nung mga time na ipinapasa ko na un answer sheet, “nagbasa ba ko? bakit tapos na ko?”. Buti na lang paglabas ko ng room may mga schoolmate ako at classmates na tapos na rin, yes! Hindi ako nag-iisa marami kaming hindi nagbasa. Un isang kaklase ko hindi mapakali dahil may 3 syang erasures, at sabi daw sa kanya ng proctor niya ay subject for cancellation un exam niya dahil may erasures siya. So para payapain siya at tanggalin ang kaba, sinabi ko sa kanya na hindi totoong maka-cancel ung exam niya…maba-banned lang siya sa PRC for 50 years, at babarilin siya pagnapadaan siya sa Morayta.

 

Pero seryoso, sa mga magbo-board exam pa lang, mag-aral kayo, hindi one month before the exam kundi habang nasa school ka pa lang at inuulan ng mga subjects. The best source of answers in such dreadful examinations is still stk. knowledge.

 

Trivia: kaya tinawag na REVIEW ang preparatory process na ginagawa ng mga examinees bago ang exam, ay dahil nire-recall mo lang ung mga bagay na NATUTUNAN mo na earlier in your studies. At sana maaga kong nalaman ang trivia na to.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Rocking with Calliope

October 1, 2008

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